It was easily the smoothest flight I've ever been on, but I was on the verge of pooping my pants the entire time. YOU THINK YOU FIXED IT???????? I was terrified, shaking and it was the longest hour and a half of my life.
For the past several months, I've been attributing my flight anxiety to that very moment on Frontier, but it was on an American flight bound for Tampa two weekends ago that it occurred to me that something else might be causing my anxiety.
For the first time in my life I have everything to lose. I'm just so absurdly happy, because I get to share my wonderful life with my little family in Dallas, Texas. Over the past few years though, I've grown terrified of putting myself in a situation potentially bound to lose it.
I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS think of the movie Sex and the City when Charlotte freaks out about being pregnant, because she is terrified that she has been given everything in life that she ever asked for.
That is really dumb, huh? Anxiety over being too happy? I'm glad I wrote this. I'm glad that I now hear how ridiculous I sound. I've never had anxiety before, but now I have it all the time. I have it over flying. I have it over Veenie. I have it over Gee. I have it over watching a drunk girl I have never met climbing up on stage, ruining the band's set with her drunkness. True story, I panicked over someone else being dumb.
I get anxiety all the damn time, and I don't know how to stop it.
I'm scared of losing everything I love. I don't want to go back to 2014 Sarah who was so sad and lonely in Dallas.
Does anyone else get anxiety like this? How do you get over it? How do you talk yourself out of feeling this way?