Venus Trapped in Mars

02 June 2015

Hey Dad!



 
Hey Dad! 

Nine years. It has been NINE years since I've seen you. That is mind boggling. For the first few years after you passed away, I feared June.  When Uncle Jim passed away exactly a year after you did, I thought June was cursed. I wanted to keep everyone in our family in their homes... no doctor visits, no "routine" checkups, away from planes and cars. When June started to come and go without a crippling tragedy in our family, I feared it less and less over the years. You'll be glad to know I don't fear it anymore, but I still miss you! 

A lot has happened in the past nine years. I don't work at Firebirds anymore, so you won't be able to ask me how much tip money I racked in on my double shift. I graduated from Tennessee and made Dean's List!!  How bout them vols? Don't worry, I didn't skip any home games in my last semester because I drank too much... ok maybe one... two max. Have you been watching? What a rocky road after they let Fulmer go. What do you think about Butch??!

I'm of course in Dallas now. I LOVE DALLAS. I'm very sorry about becoming a Cowboys fan, I'm fully aware that is the exact opposite of the Redskins. I don't think you actually liked the Redskins though, did you? I think you were just waiting for me to give you a better option to root for, just like when I forced Tennessee football on our family. 

Man I wish you could meet CB, I know you'd love him, everyone does who meets him. Actually, I wish even more that he could meet you. You know he loves golf as much as you do? He's really good. If he's having a great day, and you're having a terrible day, he could give you a run for your money! He beats me in everything, well, everything except basketball of course. I without a doubt believe that you set this whole thing up. You led me to Dallas. You led me to CB, didn't you? Am I right?  

What do you think about Veenie??? She is nuts, isn't she? Man, I love her and General so much, just as much as you loved Ginger. I ONLY feed them dog food, never people food!! If it weren't for you, I'd probably be a lot more lenient on that. 

You're still cursing me to this day with all these ridiculous terms you taught me growing up that no one understands. Like how we call ice cream sprinkles, jimmies, or the Merry Go Round, the Dobby Horses. No one has any idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure you're getting a kick out of that.

How about this blog??? How cool is this? I mean, the Kentucky Derby!! I still cannot believe I got to go to that. Do you read everyday? I bet you'd understand my obsession with following the blog's statistics. Do they have iPad's in heaven? 

What do you think about LeBron? He's no Michael, is he? I can't pinpoint why, I just don't like the guy. I think Steph Curry with the shot will win it all. I bet you don't listen to a lot of Drake in Heaven, I know you hate rap. You'd like that Steph Curry line from his song though, just as much as you loved the line, "It's hard out here for a pimp!" I'm sorry to say but I love rap. I still love your boy, Hank Williams Jr. though! I go to see him anytime he is in concert. I can't help but cry every time. Is Heaven is a lot like Dixie??

I'm sure I'm keeping you from a tee time, so I'll let you go. I miss you. Thank you for keeping me safe in that wreck, I know that was you. OH, and thank you for watching over Mom too, she really misses you. 

We love you so much. I hope know you can see that. 

Love, 
Sarah





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30 comments :

  1. hugs

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  2. Lovely blogpost, it's so sad to have to loose your father so early. I am tearing up here. *hug*

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  3. This is absolutely wonderful, Sarah and definitely brought tears to my eyes. You and your dad definitely shared one special relationship. Thinking about you xo

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  4. This is beautiful, Sarah, and simultaneously made me want to cry and go call my own dad to say hi. I especially love the part about CB and your dad playing golf together. xo

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  5. And now I'm crying at work. I love this, it's just beautiful.

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  6. Such a sweet post Sarah! A wonderful way to keep his memory alive!

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  7. This is so sweet, Sarah. Hugs to you!

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  8. This is beautiful. It's amazing how you can still feel someone's presence even after they've been gone for so long, isn't it? I can't imagine losing a parent at such a young age, but I've been thinking about it a lot since my mom's cancer diagnosis. You're in my thoughts today, friend!

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  9. So I'm totally crying now. I'm sending you many e-hugs and, man Sarah, this is just beautiful.

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  10. He would really love CB!! Great post, darling girl!

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  11. So beautiful! You have one awesome angel watching over you and bringing you wonderful things!

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  12. I just love this! Virtual hugs being sent your way :)

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  13. Sending you a lot of love. This was so beautiful and sweet. I lost my Mom 9 years ago, and this just touches my heart so dearly.

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  14. let me clear the tears from my eyes to comment on this post. so perfect sarah. Love you.

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  15. This was an awesome post! So sorry for your loss! I'm sure he's up there watching and telling everyone how proud he is of you!

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  16. Sarah, this is beautiful and brought me to tears. Tomorrow is 12 years since I lost my grandma and I lost my cousin a few months back. Writing like this definitely helps and I'm so glad you shared it. Cherish the memories! XOXO

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  17. This was so sweet and beautiful. What a fabulous relationship you had with your dad while he was here on earth!

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  18. I'm not crying....there's just something in my eye...

    This is really sweet. I know your dad is watching over you and cheering for you. You're lucky to have had such a great relationship with him.

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  19. This was beautiful! I felt like I was sneaking a peek at a personal letter to your dad. I loved how honest it was. Sending you good vibes and thoughts as you remember your father and your Uncle this month! xoxo, ganeeban

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  20. This is so sweet! I have no doubts that your father is so proud of everything you've accomplished!

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  21. So sweet, friend. I can't imagine how much you miss him. I know he's proud of you :) Hugs! xo

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  22. I wish I knew what to say to make these "anniversaries" (so to speak) better for you, but all I can offer is telling you how wonderful this post it. Sending thoughts + prayers to Dallas for you tonight!

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  23. This is so sweet. It will be 11 years this August for us. Dad watches over us every day. Who knows, maybe our dads have met up there??

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  24. After 3 attempts I was finally able to finish reading this. My mom passed away 14 years ago and it's crazy to think that much time has passed. Sometimes I feel a little crazy for missing her more as the years go on because I thought just maybe that it would get easier, but it hasn't. Thank you for not making me feel alone in the thoughts that go through my head. This is so incredibly sweet. XO!

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  25. Welp....now I am crying. Such a great post. HUGS to you!

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  26. I couldn't make it through without tears! So beautifully written, thank you for sharing and being so honest about your feelings. I lost my dad at age 11, I can relate to this! xoxo

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  27. Sending hugs your way, our fathers are so special, I will not say I know how you feel as I don't my dad is still with us and I see him at least once a week but I will say this was a bloody great post

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  28. What a wonderful testament to your love and relationship with your Dad. I miss mine so much every day.

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